On Mon, Mar 7, 2011 at 11:05 AM, Chad Nelson <chad.thecomfychair@gmail.com> wrote:
I'm confident to the point of arrogance. It's a personality flaw that I know and detest in myself, and I've worked for years to mute it. I'm also by far the best programmer that I'd ever met before I joined this list, which exacerbates the problem greatly because I've never before had any reason to be humble in that area.
To make things worse, XInt is the product of not just passion, but obsession. No completely sane human works on something like that for twelve or more hours a day, seven days a week, for months on end. There were several factors that contributed to that, but they're irrelevant.
So when I joined this list and offered XInt, I subconsciously expected to be welcomed with open arms and lauded for my contribution. Instead, the masterpiece I was so proud of was torn apart and left in a bloody heap. Six times.
None of that excuses my behavior, only hopefully explains it. I didn't realize how I was reacting until a few days ago, and I've tried very hard to divorce my emotions from the library and deal with it objectively since then. I think I've been fairly successful, but that may be unwarranted confidence talking again.
Again, I don't know anything about the history, but whatever may have come before, this testimonial instills confidence in me that Chad can handle what's coming down the road. I love it when the process works :-) -- Dave Abrahams BoostPro Computing http://www.boostpro.com